I’ve been haunting Twitter these past days, since the rape hit the headlines (or didn’t) – the Christian Porter thing, and so on. Feeling triggered for sure, but concerned more for those who aren’t a fortunate as me, (I have family and friends who truly love and support me, even if they don’t know about the extent of abuse I’d had as a younger person.
The comment below is a tweet I sent ‘out there’ earlier today, and it is the truth of how it is for me. As I said, I have support, but there are so many women, and men, suffering too right now, ones still being abused, and or with ongoing emotional, physical, and mental problems caused by the abuse. Raping someone is abuse, slut shaming women and girls is abuse. hitting is abuse, choking is abuse, punching or slapping is abuse. There are so many ways to abuse others, and it does terrible damage to a person, to be so treated …
“I’m having more and more memories crawl out of that dark hole I’d buried them in from my childhood, teen, and very young adult years. But luckily, I have good family and friends for support. My heart aches for all going through the horror of this, alone. Find help now, please.”
I have used creative writing to help me to work my way through the issues I had faced as that child, teen and young woman. I didn’t get any formal support for a long time, then had did a workshop that was useful and before that had written the poetry collection that bears the same name as this blog. This is a book, written and put together from the early times through the then present around 2010, when I had the collection published.
I’m pleased to have shared this collection with others, who know, because they’ve been and still are victims. I thought, up until the day, that I was no longer a victim, I was a thriver, but the truth of it is I am and always will be a victim of sexual abuse. My un/subconscious ,mind and my body know it, even if I might try to pretend otherwise in my conscious mind. I won’d do that any more, I’ve been feeling the truth of it, with those memories crawling out again …
I’ll do my best to go on thriving though, because I deserve that, I’ve seen Hell, and I don’t want to see that any more, if possible. I hope everyone suffering right now gets the help they need, as I said in my Tweet. We all deserve it!
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