I’m currently 57 years of age, looking forward to my 58th birthday in April 2021. So only just over four months. In my life, I’ve been many things, both good and bad, but the good ones a far outweigh the bad ones, these days.
Some important things, in terms of this blog site, is that I have been a victim of sexual abuse, firstly as quite a young child (at approximately 7 years old). I suffered further abuse as a teen, a young person learning about sex at the hands of adults who should have not been abusing me, because I was still underage, and so unable to legally give consent.
These things happened, I can’t change that, but what can and have changed is the name I give to myself. I was a victim of sexual abuse, then I was a survivor of sexual abuse. Neither of these titles tell the story most important to me and my life now though. I am not a downtrodden victim, I am something so much better than that, I am a survivor, and we can take that one step up too, I am thriving!
I have been down low, but I have worked through those times, both alone, and with assistance from others. Sexual abuse is a not uncommon thing, not only, but more often, happening to girls and women. Yes, men suffer from abuse, sexual and otherwise, but that is not a story for me to tell, it is their story.
One of the tools, the most important tool, that helped me bet from being a victim, to thriving, was my creative writing. From the time I wrote my first poem relating to the abuse I’d received as a child, I could feel my inner strength growing. I eventually wrote many more poems relating to sexual and other forms of abuse, and was able to get a poetry collection published, one that I have shared with many other victims of sexual abuse.
This poetry collection title is “damaged children, Precious Gems” and this blog site was created with the same name to both connect with other victims of sexual abuse, and to possibly find people who would like to have a copy of the book. I still have plenty of copies left, and am planning to make 2021 the year I take my Story out into the public in a much bigger way, by doing a lot more Public Speaking.
As well as the Public Speaking, I also love presenting Creative Writing Workshops, and I know others find a sense of empowerment, by being able to write out the words that haunt them, that have been shut away in the dark corners of their mind. Writing things down are of great assistance in the healing process, and that healing can take a long time. It’s a form of grief, where the adult is grieving for the damage done to the child they were …
I have spoken about this poetry collection, and I sell copies of my book, and when I feel the need to, I am happy to give copies to those I feel a connection with, and who I feel need the book, to help them come to terms with this Victim label, and so move up to ladder from victim, to survivor, and so up to Thriver! I am involved with a group of lovely ladies, all victims of abuse, and we meet together at times, to have fun, and support each other. We are the Precious Gems, and proud to be so!
So yes, I have been a victim, but with the wonderful fulfilling life I now have, with family and friends who love and care about me, I make my own labels, Writer, Poet, Good Person, Thriver, and Proud Precious Gem!